life is something

i know that its a wonderful world but i cant feel it right now

Mon, 15 Sep 2008 19:36:49 GMT

Jayne Worth
April 17 at 4:46pm
who knows when youll read this. it doesnt really matter. i just wanted to tell you that i love you i miss you. everything about you. i can remember so well the way your hands feel as you touched me. the way your face feels when i kissed it and nugged my cheek aganist yours. i remmeber the way we would sit together getting stoned on my bed just being together. i remember ebverything. and i miss it. i fuckin miss you so damn bad fred. i can see you right now, as i sit on my bed, walking through my door, sayin "hi" in that cute voice of yours and then you would come over and grab my head and kiss it. i can picture that right now, i can just imagine you doing that. and i want it. dammit i cant stand it and now im crying and i gotta go pack up your shit so ur mom can come get it. except i was smart bc after i saw ur mom take those tims i was like fuck that so i took a few pieces of ur clothing and your posters and black lights and shit. so i can have a part of you with me. untill we meet again

Fred Diaz
August 24 at 12:02pm
don´t you worry your pretty little heart. I feel the same way about you. all of those months alone in jail were just hell without you. Now that I´m out its alright cause I´m free and all but I don´t have you. And I need you so bad. Ýou´ll alwys be the reason I love. You´ll always be the most spaecial person In my heart. I miss you terribly and I´m coming back for you. I have to. Please wait for me, love. You know my heart and know that I only want to do right by you. Being in El Salvador is some crazy shit. Its pretty but ugly too. I just want to come back home and be with you. Lets just wait this last little bit out and we´ll be back together again. I promise this to you. I lOVE you Jaynie. I always will.

love poem

Thu, 12 Jun 2008 20:19:24 GMT

"My Own War"
by: Freddy W Diaz

I contemplate. I'm in a state of withdrawal. Maybe its fate, that I have to live in such sorrow. Can you relate? It might only be my problem. I hate it that I involve you but you are my only friend thats true. I cannot help that I love you. It's my heart that made the choice and now I don't know what to do. I know I need you. And that I want you. I want to be the right man so that we can both be hand in hand. I want so bad for you to understand me. It ain't that easy. I've acted sleazy. I wish that you'd believe me, when I tell you, that my heart bleeds. From what I've failed to succeed. And thats my life. The pain when I realize my idiocy and what I've left behind. It kills me inside, to have you hate me. The fact that as of lately all i do just seems to break me. Further down. Depression pounds my heart, and once thought sound, mentality. I face the reality that my life might not end up happily. I find it sad to see. I can only change it. I see my past, I rearrange it, look at my future and try to change scenes. Do you know what I mean? I am so different. To love you has been my goal, but to act stupid was not my intent. I've tried to reinvent myself. I cannot live through this life shell or else I'm stuck forever in hell. If my sincerity you can not tell then why do I try if I'll only fail? I'm so regretful of how hard I've fell and to prove it to you my soul I'd sell. My sadness owns me, and I can't fix shit. My opinion is to risk it, tell you my heart and leave it with this: That you accept me, and keep with me your love. I know that promises are not nearly enough. I only ask that you trust in my devotion. I hate to be emotional but it only comes out because of you. With you I've got a clue, as to what I'm doing. What I'm pursuing. What I find true in, this life, that has not been too polite and has tried to take what I love twice. And it's not right, for us, to leave things as they were. We've shared lovely moments that were pure, and the bad times we left need a cure. I have to know, what could've been. If we would have seen, these beautiful moments that live only in my dreams. We've been a team so long and I hate it that we parted. I pray for the opportunity to return things like they were when we started. How it was all because of love and not decided by anger. I don't want to live my life without a purpose, feeling like a stranger. A half a person, not ever whole. It's my sadness that takes a hold but to you at least my heart I've told.

I love you forever

you are my heart, my soul, and everything that I believe in

raining

Wed, 05 Mar 2008 03:57:55 GMT

thank goodness its raining. its thundering too. hope we dont get a tornado, fuck that! spring breaks nice, wish it was later so it would be warm but tahts okay, your spoce to go somewhere warm for spring break. but oh well im bad at planning. I did go to the beach for the day yesterday, twas nice, wish i coulda stayed and kicked it with gus longer though!! saw boo today too, poor boo, gettin jewed by the establishment/man/system. we all know how i feel about that though. new manager at Sbux; we all know how i feel about that though. ha. jeeeez. well a early spring break means an early summer, though im doing summer school. omg its raining really hard, im scared. fuck! we need the rain though. best not tornado. dammit. this shits like right on top of raleigh.

hmm new thoughts. went swimmin w britt today. love doin that. i love swimmin. i should move to the beach. crazy happeninings this past weekends. fuck an old chair. hope my comp dont fry, naw it wont, i just unplugged that shit! yay yay rain rain, still wont be enough. confused w boy shit. as always, man my thoughts are just jumpin around a lot arent they? thas ok.

im reading a good book right now, white oleander. read it. i enjoy art history immensely. should i rewrite my hamlet paper? probably so. I DONT WANT TO. im hungry. bye

fuck

Wed, 23 Jan 2008 16:16:10 GMT

i hate the government and beauocratic nonsense that one has to put up with to do anything in this stupid country. i hope that the upcoming electing does something good for this piece of shit. health care taxes schools everything. but fuck the government.

i hope everything turns out well and i hope that everyone gets what they deserve. i dont understand why all this shit went down the way it did i just want justice.

i miss carter i wonder how she is. we need to finish beating her xboyfriends ass.

dammit.

i miss boo regardless

fuck

Tue, 25 Dec 2007 18:15:31 GMT

christmas is gay and so are a lot of other people and things

but it was awesome going to joes christmas party with chea last night, i love luke and joe!! i was very fucked up last night. jackdaniels with yuengling chasers, what? and vaporizers wooooooo

fagget ass fred called me and was tellling me some bullshit and i was drunk cuz it was last night so i think that conversation went bad cuz hes a little bitch and i was drunk and i dont like little bitches especially when im drunk. what a piece of shit i hope he fuckin gets herpes. or something haha thats fucked upo!!!!!!

i didnt get shit for xmas and thats okay cuz i still got some stuff but jonathan is such a piece of shit too bc he doesnt ever appriciate anything and was so rude and just like I DONT LIKE THIS SHIT GET ME STUFF ILL LIKE, what a dick i hope he gets herpes too.

i would like to drink and smoke ganja right now.

im getting another tattoo and its going to be the shit ive thought it all out.

all sissys goin to hell!

fuckin stupid

Sat, 22 Dec 2007 21:03:24 GMT

last night was fucking stupid and that fagget is a piece of shit rude ass motherfucker, not like we didnt already know this. so i think i can finally get some closure because i know whatsup foreal now. drank some coronas with lime and ate some wingzone so all was well. also seeing emmei makes me happy so thats good. i just dont understand why he acts the way he does after all weve been through. how the fuck can he not even act decent and civil? its okay, i know people have their own thing going on, so they do what they do, and i do what i do, and thats all i have to say about that; like forest gump.

littlekitty is so cute!

should i make cookies for britts christmas dinner tonight? i should, but i dont feel like doing shit. kewjhrskdfkhsdf. i need to do lots of shit but fuck that.

so amelia and i went to wilmington to see gus, that was fun, blazed lots. yay

i love techno music, shit im lame.

fuck fagget motherfuckers. damn. i just wanna kick that motherfucker in his fucked up eye. i knew he was a piece of shit, damn, why did i ever start dating him? fuckin, fagget. shit. and most dudes are fuckin pieces of shit so damn, i gotta just keep my eye out i guess but really keeep my eye out cuz anit no one playin me.

oh and fuck fagget friends too, most of them are full of shit cept a few, all of em are fill of shit in their own ways and people need to pay me back and stop being stupid and youll get whats comming to you bitches and mofuckas need to stop being lazy, work you pieces of shit. world cant be handed to you on a silver platter. fuckers

yo yo yo yo yo yo!!!!!

Fri, 14 Dec 2007 22:05:32 GMT

holy shit i havnt written in this thing in for fuckin evverrrr!!!!!!!!!!! i should start, its nice to vent no? well lets see lots has changed and what not, last exam is tomarow, and then ill be done with my first semester of college hellz yeah! i changed my major to graphic design chuyuhhh bitches cuz tahts where its at for ME. Who knows wussup wit me and boy? but i could write a fuckin book about that shit. jshdfsfksd i need to go to kmart and get my cuz a gift. yay kmart.

man i got drunk as fuck last night holy shitttttt. i always cuss to much in this shit but its all kosher. shffsjhdjkfh beer before liquor never been sicker bitch! oh shittt! and like i could have sworn i did not drink all the fuckin OJ but damn i must have.

oh chester just imed me. i love chester she and melly got crunk w me last nitee.

im excited about xmas this year. CHRISTMAS. not xmas damn!!!!!!! anyway yeah i got my shopping done. almost. so its all gravy. starbucks 20% off hell yeah plus 30% i already get off. YEAH. i wish i didnt have an exam tomarow that ruins friday wtf??????

okay holllla!!!!!!! damn i need a blunt!

Fri, 12 Jan 2007 21:56:36 GMT

fuck!!!!!!!!!!! I JUST WANT TO BE ABLE TO DO WHAT I FUCKIN WANT TO DO.

boy is lame. he says he loves me so. but he never does shit. instead of buying a bag of chronic one day that little bitch should fuckin bye me like...a fuckin 25cent ring from the gumball machine. or something. jesus christ. maybe he can go to the fuckin park and steal me some flowers or something. anything. that bitch ass. god dammnnit. i think im losing interest. ayeeeeeeeeee time to go out and party and find some new fun. ;)

i love depeche mode. PEOPLE ARE PEOPLE

i just wanna graduate and get the fuck outta that bullshit they call school but its prision really. i just wanna be able to fuckin bye a fuckin fifth of whiskey when i wanna buy that shit man. i wanna be able to smoke a fuckin joint in the middle of the street with out being hassled by the man. i wanna fuckin go to the beach. but i cant have any of these things so i gotta make the best of life.

i miss a lot of people who have left my life.

i want some syd mayn. ASAP

the distillers are the shit too
i miss carter

i wanna get me fuckin tattooooooo eh.
and tounge piereced
rebelllllll mofuckasxzxzx

all my friends are murderers.

Wed, 06 Dec 2006 21:02:09 GMT

fuck school
fuck work
fuck you
fuck authority
fuck homework
fuck barking dogs
fuck school
fuck school
fuck not havin my best friend
fuck hangovers
fuck my bitch ass mom
fuck no chronic
fuck christmas
fuck knocking on my fuckin door

guys are pigs

Sat, 18 Nov 2006 13:10:07 GMT

fuck guys
who the fuck do they think they are
tryna control motherfuckers
thats why
they get their faces slapped
but then im the one that looks like a bitch?
when they deserved it
fuck that shittttt
anit no one gunna tell me what the fuck to do
god dammit
GRRRRRRRRRRRRR

oh and sorta on the same note
fuck boy
cuz
he gets to drunk
and is like
sjfdsjhdfkjshfdsd nothing
when we were spoce to do shit
cuz we never do
and my best friend was in town
and we were gonna chill rite
but boy just fuckin gets drunk and stupid
then is like lets go do this other shit with out you
and im like aite peace
and if you have $to cop tha goods
then why dont you have $ to take me out.
i mean i dont really care that much
but you know
thats what ur spoce to do SOMETIMES AT LEAST.
im bout to drop this nigga
cuz he dont know how to treat a lady
its not that hardd.

Thu, 09 Nov 2006 19:02:56 GMT

Yo livejournal gets newer every time i log on to this bitch, thas prlly cuz i never do tho eh?

Well today its a niec ass day outside. its like nov fuckin 9 and its 70 degreeeeez out.

da.mn son i just ate like a shit load of food. munchies mofucka. i love lady sovereign shes the SHITTTTTTT. download the hell outtaaa her. er buy the cd.. but download is free so cyuhhhhh. im in a very good mood right now. iono if its maryjayne or like me maryjayne i dunno but its straight. i dont gotta go to school tomarow and i got the night off and i NEVRE have the night off so that shits radddddddd yuhhhhhh.

tryna cop some liq tonite u know and take it ez. haha i said ez. thas funny. fuck the traffic on peace street around lunch time. those motherfuckers need to get the fuck outta my hood.

"ill never go hungry due to tha beats i eatttttt" haha thas rad shit

i miss melinda i havnt seen her in a while
i miss carter i havnt seen her in foreevr

wellllll, peace out. lets hope ig et intocollege.

ehhhhhhh

Thu, 05 Oct 2006 14:31:58 GMT

So last night i stayed up way to late shootin pool. which made me study for these 2 tests. im so proud of myself because i actually studied and i never ever everververvevr study. ever. i sat down and did tha damn thing and if i dont get at least an 85 on the math test ima raise hell. pcys test i dont give a fuck about. yeahh i had to wake up EARLY and go to school EARLY to take a test before school then take another test so i was like thats enough for today considering im runnin on 2 hours of sleep so i dipped out. you know enjoyin senior year and what not. those mofuckaz and kiss my ass.

i made an account on deviantart.com i am XmaryXjayneX just like on myspace ah whaadaya know?

i would like a drink rite about now. and a NAP.

my ears hurt.

slimthuggamofucka.

hm what else is new?

oh yes i saw mad ppl yesterday that i hadnt seen in forever. that was good. brodie, juice, erin, molly. thats always the shit

im glad a lotta ppl that i know seem to have gotten their shit together. i thought everyone was fuckin up for a while and didnt think shit would ever be okay but its straight now.for the most part. im not sure about some ppl tho. hopefully theyll be okay. i hate to see my friends fuckin up. now all i gotta do is make sure i dont fuck up.

fuck!! shut the fuck up!!!1

fuck

Tue, 03 Oct 2006 17:53:41 GMT

just because you have me
doesnt mean youve got me
and baby if you want me
then please just make me hapy
i cant read youre fuckin mind
and you dont know whats on mine
thats why i shade my blues
so you cant see inside my eyes
for if you knew the truth
youd be rather confused
because nothing is for sure
and im uncertain too
we say that know
to rest outselves assured
yet you have no idea
and this is so absured
so if you have the slighest
please just tell me youre thoughts
for if i am youre everything
how come i feel like i am not

im waiting for this fucker to actually say it. because if thats what he thingk- then i gotta make sure. and if hes to scared-then he anit the gangsta i thought he was. even though i know i make him not so bad.

bong rips

Sun, 01 Oct 2006 12:53:56 GMT

So on friday i got my wisdom teeth taken out. guess im not as wise no mo eh? and ur NOT SPOCE TO SMOKE NOTHING afterwarsd. no rocks, no ciggys, no pot, no crank NOTHIN. i deffently took a few bong rips tho... hehe. that with my hydrocodon.. damn son! made my tooth ache go away. now its back tho fuck. its been such a nice weekend and ive had to sit on my damn couch the whole time! fuckkkkkkk! oh well hopefully there will be many more ahead. i hate how when u cant do shit theres a lot to do and when u got time do do shit nothings goin on. wtfs up with that?

hm so me and boyyyyyyyyy. i guess you could say things are getting pretty serious. i mean we talk online for like 4 hrs a day. haha just kidding thats only that dude from napolien dynomyte. but stillll yeah i guess its serious now. until he moves away soon. what the fuck did i get myself into? seriously why the fuck did i do that. i know hes gonna leave me soon. oh well, shit happens for a reason. "youll find that truth out whne u upstate bleedin!" ohhhhhhhh jus kiddin thas my rapstar commin out rite there i anit gonna kill no one. haha i guess ill just enjoy the time i have with him. silly gangsta

i really wanna see who wins on FLAVA FLAVE. holy shit the suspense is killing me!

oh yeah so how about a fuckin dog bit me last nite. how am i gonna get my fuckin teeth taken out then a dog bits me the next day? i wonder whats gonna happen today. stupid fuckin dog i woulda smaccked the shit outta it but its melindas sisters and like yeah iono i just didnt but i yelled at him and he felt bad i could tell. GOOD he better feel bad.

damn i need a painkillah. ayeeeeeeeeeee. peace

Sun, 10 Sep 2006 19:43:33 GMT

im cracking up right now because melinda just told me that she crashed a moped when she was drunk last night. hah thats funny as shit. I LOVE YOU MELINDA.
melly and i chilled all this weekend and i was drunk as fuck on friday.
i been stressin lately so i just got me a fifth of vodka and some cranberry juice and cashed the fuck outta it. by myfuckin self. just like george thourogood, i drink alone.
evidently i talked to fred about us haha. evidently....blah blah blah but i dont remember! now we are official. thats cool. im glad. except when he has to move away. what the fuck. oh well ill just enjoy the time we have.
amelias a stupid fucking bitch
tom petty is tonight but i dont know if i wanna go cuz i have to write some papers and bullshit.
i prlly wont write the papers.
all i want do to is waste time with fred.
you know, just post up and watch tv and talk about life for hours at a time.
that sorta thing, cuz thats how we roll, lame as fuck and not givin a fuck.
hm hm hm. i wish the year would end.
sigh.
i need to be productive but i really dont want to be.

so im not gonna.
so fuck you.

i miss carter really bad.

i wish shit was how it used to be.

when i didnt have to give a fuck about anything and i could just get stoned all the time. haha. but shit i realize now that i cant ever not give a fuck about anything ever again. ohhhhhh shit. that sucks.

Sun, 27 Aug 2006 19:27:10 GMT

they were all as diffferent
as they could be
but none of them were
good enough for me
one of them
he caught my eye
but his time of day
was kind of shy
attention ridden
wants and needs
everything revolves
and its not around me

please just say something. bitch ass.

crackheads

Sat, 26 Aug 2006 23:59:35 GMT

yoyooy
rite now im trying to find that shit online where u can see where a checkpoints gonna be. cuz its saturday and i wanna drive around drunk in peace god dammit. ahhhhh jus kiddin.

hm today work was crazy as fuck. it was like KJSHFDKJSHDs just like that man. this fuckin crackhead er like mentaly fucked up lady came in and was likeeeeee... "you littleeeee bitch! you were here last night and you said yall were open 24 hours a day sjhdfshkjsf mumble hfsfdjhsfd" and i was like EXCUSE ME wtf and went to get this nigga kyle to come regulate before i beat a crackheads ass but her crackhead ass left so it was just sorta weird. and i deffently wasnt working last nite. haha it was funny tho. dont smoke crack everybody! also just a bunch of shit. fuckit tho.

the first day of school was lame as hell. im pissed bc i was used to not being around a bunch of hoytytoyty assholes and now i gotta be at school with them and im just like... FUCK. because those assholes dont know shit and dont care about shit cept their own worthless little bullshit lives. ohwell their time will come and it just brings be joy to know that they gonna get it sometime. cuz u know what goes around comes around. blah.

im sick of motherfuckers hitting on me. haha actually im not cuz i like the attention but shh. but naw foreal this bitch at subways always askin me when ima be legal and shit and if i have a boyfriend so i made up this boyfriend and this nigga was all like gettin personal like whats ur boyfriend do what kinda cars he have so i made up this crazy shit and made it sound like i had a rich ass boy who drove a beamer and shit haha it was a trip. that damn fucker at subway. i swear hes been tryna holla since i was like 14 wtffffff son??

my cat bit me on the toe. that nigg

i miss carter thats my babyyyyyyyyyyyyyy and she left me forever.

i still cant find my bowl god dammit

i gotta apply for colleges and make my portfolio with all the bullshit ive ever created ever and god damn am i stressed out.

fuck school fuck it fuck fuck fuck i should just sell drugs and make madddd bank and ahhhhh just fuckin with ya!

i ran into adam at the gas station and that nigga saved the day cuz he lent me 10 dollaz for gas which only like kisses my tank but regardless my dumbass left my wallet at home so i was like strizzzzzzzzzzy and i miss adam so that was cool. sometimes i wish things were like how they ussed to be. godddddddd damn

oh yeh and this dude at the gas station came up to me and was like I LOVE YOUR HAIR IM A HAIR STYLIST COME TO MY SALON SO I CAN CUT YOUR HAIR and i was like OKAY COOL. haha so was that funny.

chilled with boy last nite. and the nite before and the nite beforeeeeeeee ah im lame. but ya boy. hm. boy . sjdhfkjshfdkj i dont know what we are. when i was drunk i was like what the fucka re we. u know jus likeeeee what the fuck. and i think we established that we are chillin cuz this niggaz bout to leave me here in like some months iono when and i just dont know. im bad though and ill be all like hmmmmm other niggazzzzzzz what up HOLLA and im sure he is too but rite now its just us and id be pissed if he be talkin bout some random ass bitches but shit what can ya do. thats not a healthy relationship now is it? haha fuck! fuck fuck fuck :( im hopeless. i hope he dont just like me cuz im good at what i do. muhaha. i mean shit i know were friends regardless but you know, i hope thats not why he keeps me around. that bitch never calls me either. i know hes shy and shit but shit what a lameo. i think wayt o much. damn pot makin me ponder so. but this is my damn journal shit so what the fuck thats what its here for eh? dammnit fuck you boy ill worry about your ass later. if you dont get arrested first and break my damn heart again.

avenged sevenfold is the fuckin shit. ive been listening to crazy ass hardcore rock lately. gets tha anger out good. anger? what fuckin anger? holy shitttttt

my nigga melinda be commin over soon. were partyin tonite hell yuh baby. goin to this like dress to impress party but im thinkin either dress really fuckin hott in my hott ass red pinstriped pants er dress fuckin grungy as hell and be like FUCK DRESSING UP. punkassmofucka.

aye dios mio! i guess ill go get ready for that shit. hmjhmhm

i cant wait till it gets cold so i can wear my pimp ass corduroy jacket with tha fur in the inside. hell ya baby.

where is my mind?

im sad because i realize i havnt been chilled out relaxed and peaceful in a long time and i fear i wont for a while. damn that son.

berchickaberber

Mon, 14 Aug 2006 23:14:45 GMT

man what the fuck is up journal?
im jsut chillin at the house with a spore throat cuz boy got me sick that motherfucker! that and ozzfest fuck yueahhhhhhhhhh.
hm i saw juicebox yesterday and it made me happy because i love juice box and i missed him. i was worried about him.
alice cooper is the shit.
i had to work at 7 am today and i def went to sleep at like 2 cuz i was a dumbass and chilled with boy for wayyyyyyy to long. its straight tho ;)

im sick of dealing with other motherfuckers problems. im always helpin niggaz out god dammit. i need more jayne time. sit down and drink a beer and chillll. maybe a whiskey on the rocks cuz thas my favorite. damn i bvest get my ass to the alphabet store soon if i want that damn shit! 9 pm is approachin.

im ready to drink some beer and kick some ass. i dont know why i want to kick ass but i need to kick some peoples asses. maybe its cuz im listennin to this crazy music. i like this journal shit cuz its like talking to myself. however i feeel that i am oftentimes very pessimestic. oh fuckin wel its my damn journal shit god dammit.

so i got 50% off the mellow mushroom today cuz i work at starbucks and its monday and that was the shittttt! put that in youre pipe and smoke it bitches!

misfits are my love

i need some pot

maybe pretty girl too but shes evil ande xpensive hehe.

ah!!!!!!!!! one tequila 2 tequila 3 tequila floor! ima go so BYE NIGGAZ

kjshdfsdfsdhfdshffkmwah

Sun, 06 Aug 2006 20:29:14 GMT

hm well i just got back from the beach
i got stung by a jellyfish on the fuckin ass
like a fucked up jellyfish cuz that shits crucial
im sad because i cant find my bowl
and ive been gettin sick lately
i miss chillin but i think ive chilled to much
its gettin to me dammmit.
anxiety? i dont know what it is
but i get to not feelin to hott.
tho i just got back from vacation i feel as if i need anotherone
one away from everyone
everything
maybe thats a change of scenery i need
a change of
fuckin everything
fuck. i dont know
sometimes i dont fuckin know what to think
i dont know what the fuck i want
and im not fuckin happy and i dont know why
i do know i guess
but its like somethings not right
maybe im just being a fuckin freak
i just miss carter
im fuckin hungry
but i cant eat.
dammit
so ill smoke some resin haha
and try to get an appitite
hopyfully i dont get all fucked up--
cuz ill be bymyself
and habve nothing to worry about
i think i worry to much
dammit thats going to cause stress
which causes pimples and wrinkles and all sorts of bad shit

sigh
boy is back
im so glad
cept i dont know what i really want
and hell just be leaving me soon again anyways
so i should get carried away
who knows what the fuck
i sure fuckin dont

when you lose hope
its hard to cope.

bad lovin, bad habits, bad thoughts, bad timing.

i wish it would rain . because i love the smell of rain

WAR by bob marley

Tue, 18 Jul 2006 16:26:46 GMT

Until the philosophy which holds one race
Superior and another inferior
Is finally and permanently discredited and abandoned
Everywhere is war, me say war

That until there is no longer first class
And second class citizens of any nation
Until the colour of a man's skin
Is of no more significance than the colour of his eyes
Me say war

That until the basic human rights are equally
Guaranteed to all, without regard to race
Dis a war

That until that day
The dream of lasting peace, world citizenship
Rule of international morality
Will remain in but a fleeting illusion
To be pursued, but never attained
Now everywhere is war, war

And until the ignoble and unhappy regimes
That hold our brothers in Angola, in Mozambique,
South Africa sub-human bondage
Have been toppled, utterly destroyed
Well, everywhere is war, me say war

War in the east, war in the west
War up north, war down south
War, war, rumours of war

And until that day, the African continent
Will not know peace, we Africans will fight
We find it necessary and we know we shall win
As we are confident in the victory

Of good over evil, good over evil, good over evil
Good over evil, good over evil, good over evil

Enlight of all the fuckin horseshit goin on over there with them damn towelheads-

The top 20 things not to say to a cop when he pulls you over.

Tue, 11 Jul 2006 15:59:57 GMT

The top 20 things not to say to a cop when he pulls you over.

20. I can't reach my license unless you hold my beer.

19. Sorry officer, I didn't realize my radar detector wasn't plugged in.

18. Aren't you the guy from the villiage people?

17. Hey, you must have been doing 125 to keep up with me, good job.

16. I thought you had to be in relatively good physical shape to be a police officer.

15. I was going to be a cop, but I decided to finish high school instead.

14. Bad cop. No donut.

13. You're not going to check the trunk, are you?

12. Gee, that gut sure doesn't inspire confidence.

11. Didn't I see you get your butt kicked on cops?

10. Is it true that people become cops because they are too dumb to work at McDonalds?

9. I pay your salary

8. So uh, you on the take or what?

7. Gee officer, that's terrific. The last officer only gave me a warning.

6. Do you know why you pulled me over? Okay, just so one of us does.

5. I was trying to keep up with traffic. Yes, I know there is no other cars around, that's how far they are ahead of me.

4. What do you mean have I been drinking? You are the trained specialist.

3. Well, when I reached down to pick up my bag of crack, my gun fell off of my lap and got lodged between the brake and the gas pedal, forcing me to speed out of control.

2. Hey, is that a 9mm? That's nothing compared to this 44 magnum.

1. Hey, can you give me another one of those full cavity searches?

even when im not focused, i am.

Sun, 09 Jul 2006 23:52:14 GMT

hi sup havnt writteen in a while
been havin a good summer
went to STEP at NCSTATE a few weeks ago. textiles yay. those fuckers at state better let me in or ima raise hell. haha good thing i dont have to worry about that for another like 3 months. shit. thats soon.
any way it was fun and i i met some cool mofuckaz

my bday was thursday
one more year till im legal holyshit!

point me to the sky above
i cant get there on my own
point me to the graveyard
dig up her bones.
Misfits= :)

sup. havnt written in this thing in a hwile but since my best friend moved away, and all my other friends suck ass i have to write in an online journal to vent. LAME. haha. erm but yeah so my main thing that im pissed about is my looking after everyone. i swear to fuckin good. if i wasnt here half the mofuckaz i know would prlly be dead. stupid asses. im always remindin and pullin ppl back so they dont get hit and watching every move while they drive so we both dont die. im always spottin that extra dolla and payin tha tab even when i got less dough. holdin tha door, blah blah ect ect......i hope it pays off. its good karma i know. but god damn does it wear me out. i feel unappriciated is what im gettin at i guess.

oh well as long as my boy fred comes back then its all worth it. i hope everything works out for him and the fuckin bullshitass government doesn't screw him over. if they do weze movin to canada. how bout them canucks? god dammit. i miss fred SO fuckin much. i cant find a boy. they all fuckin suck ass. who knows what woulda happend w fred and i if he hadnt gotten popped. maybe it was meant to be like that. WHO THE FUCK KNOWS. alls i know is i better see him soon.

so im drinkin this makers mark and its makin me bones rest easy. workin 8 hrs is some shit. bullshit. i have so much to do. but when i get off work all i want to do is nothing. and thats what i do. sighhhhhhhh. im so far gone.

ermmmmmmmmmm i gotta make a portfolio. ive got to take the sat again. ive got to apply for grants and scholoarships. ive got to apply to colleges. ive got to work. ive got to get that AP shit.

ive got to time out and chill. but i cant.

i wish i could just fuckin live in a cabin in the woods. away from the bullshit.sign

how my heart HURTS. jsut like Mr Hunter S Thompsons attorney in Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas, i have a sick heart. so youll have to excuse my crazyness.

god damn that markersmark is some strong shit!

until next time my online bullshitjournal-peaceeeeeeee

Wed, 21 Jun 2006 21:13:33 GMT

yo so its been a while lots goin on, i miss carter and fred and kayla fuckin moved away. what the fuck. seen melly lots lately tho. canes won the stanly cup big mob in glenwood south. got a letter from fred today. dammi so much gay shit when it comes to that i just miss him and wish he was here bc all guys suck cept fred cuz we actually got along and he was a good person. fuck. hm starbucks goin well. goin to state camp shit. i dont wanna go but ittle be straight i guess. io just wanna hgeyt drunk tonite. blahsdfk i gotta lotta my favorite thing haha. yay. no not tha but thad be cool. erm. im tan. got some cute new shorts. school sucks ass but its out. got a 3.9 gpa? something iono, wanna get sat scores soon. litlte kat is vcrazy. sadie still here yay i luev my ababy

THEYT OOK THE BEST YRS OF MY LIFE
and made it so i couldnt decide!!!!!!!!! <3sex pistols.

boss@ work today and i made bad cappachino. oh no. hehe.then i made the "best one shes sever had !!!!!!" its tha whole milk nukkaaaaaaaaa

i miss cata and fred and kayla i miss them aww fuck cig time!!!! hopefully ill find something to do tonite. if not oh well. i love you everyone but i miss fred he has my heart!!! AND HES BREAKING IT WITHOUT MEANING TO THE GOVERNMENT IS MAKIN IT LIKE , GOSH GOVERNMENT YOURE BREAKIN MY HEART!!!

Mon, 20 Mar 2006 21:48:32 GMT

lots of bdays recently. won 75 dollaz 2nd place with black dress. saw carter this weekend. just got back from suspension. not sure if ill evre see freddy again. im hungry. just typed a paper. spring breaks commin up. st pattys day kicked ass. saw amy recently. O too. erin too. lots of ppl so tahts good. hillary, grace, others. hm. 50% off mellow mushroom tontie. amelia got her liscense dammit i want mine. dont know why i dont got it. horse shit. red dress goin good. NYC trip soon. lil kat so cute. my cat cuter. ryan? ah poor fred. hm. peaceeeeeeeeeeeeeee luvvvvvvvvv all. lata

Sun, 19 Feb 2006 13:30:13 GMT

you have no life